Goodbye.

They always ask us to guard our hearts.

But is taking the defensive step the best way to guard it?

Or is it to nourish the heart with things that make it feel alive?

What do you see?

What you see...is never what you get.

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They say when you play with fire...you get burnt.

2006.

Can we finish strong together?

As the year is coming to an end, Ive been reflecting. 2006 has been a very interesting year for me, with many triumphs and tribulations. Its the year where:

• I died at 'dooms day'. Maybe because of that...I'm very numb in many ways.

• Won the Regional HSBC Young Entrepreneur Awards in Hong Kong. A lil press and media coverage for that. Major confidence boost...thanks Dad.

• Turned 20. For me, it signifies entering a different playing field. My teenage grounds were fun, I'm looking forward for this season of my life...the twenty-somethings.

• Failed a subject for the first time at Uni. As much as its difficult, theres always a lesson in failure. I'm learning how to embrace it...and I still believe His plan is perfect.

• Said goodbye. And for the first time...I guess this is really goodbye.

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I remember entering the year with 2 main resolutions. And Ive always believed its good to have them. They keep us in check of what we set out to do in the first place. With them, we are able to measure our walk.

For me, this year's aim was to:

1. Love wholeheartedly.
2. Finish strong.

I'm looking back the year, and indeed it has been a great year. With many smiles and tears along the way of sunny days and stormy nights. 2006 would be one of those years that I will never forget.

At the end of the day, I want to learn how to love wholeheartedly, and finish strong. I want to live life and know that I have succeeded.



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Emerson once said...

"To laugh often and much, to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children, to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure betrayal of false friends, to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others, to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch...to know that even once life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded."


The many times I fell, and I couldn't shout cause no one should understand, thanks for being there. I appreciate You.

In my victories, I stand in awe for I know I do not deserve certain things that I have achieved. I am grateful for You.



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In the process of getting my visa done for Australia and enjoying the Christmas season. Its my favourite time of the year.

Online dating anyone?




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What do you do when you fail?

What do you do when you fail?

Theres been much going thru my mind the past 18 hours since I took the results of my final examination. I failed one of my papers, its called Accounting Standards and Regulations.

Ive been trying to digest the whole issue. Thanks to great friends, Im blessed for not walking this road alone.

Could it be that I didnt master the subject enough even to pass? But for some weird reason, my whole group of friends didnt clear the paper as well. Funny too, how more than 50% of the entire semester didnt either.



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This is hard on me, especially when in many ways, Ive always been at the top regardless of the situation or matter. Making this slightly more than just failing a paper.

But I guess theres always a start to learn how to take in failures. And Im trying to embrace this lesson in the best fashion I can.

I know there are many victories coming ahead, but together with that, Ive many failures Ive to learn how to undertake as well. Its all part of life, and in many ways...it makes me more...human.



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How do you feel? Many have asked.

I feel Ive disappointed my parents, my friends and the people who look up to me. The pinch is a lil harder when Ive always been the one who never fails in the things that I put my hands upon.

But more than that, I feel Ive disqualified myself from being the testimony that I am. It might sound a lil drastic, but I am hard on myself when it comes to these things.

Painful, but theres no secret in dealing with pain. We just got to learn how to live with it.



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Saying so...what do you do when you fail?

Im trying my best to live by this:


"Forgetting those things which are behind does not suggest an impossible feat of mental and psychological gymnastics by which we try to erase the failures of the past. It simply means that we break the power of the past by living for the future. We cannot change the past, but we can change the influence of the past."



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If I could...Id make you the happiest woman in the whole world.